Terror and Paralysis

I'm terrified and it's paralysed me from doing something. I retreat to some imagined limbo in which I'm comfortable and time ticks by, pointlessly ticking. I'm not used to being dissabled like this, it's not unusual but it is rare. I want this time though to force myself through it. So that's what I intend to do. Just not today, I have given up on today already. Let me live with my own self defeat another night.

fuck me.